Taraji P. Henson Talks Suicidal Thoughts Over Pandemic

Diva & Vixens- Karen Smith Article

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The COVID-19 pandemic took its toll on the whole world throughout 2020 and it affected many people in different ways regardless if you caught the virus or not. Celebrities were not immune to the changes put on the world through lockdowns and quarantines. Taraji P. Henson made it clear that she did not handle the pandemic well when it first broke out.

On her Facebook Watch series, Peace of Mind with Taraji, she explained the pressure of the coronavirus pandemic made her contemplate taking her own life. She told co-host Tracie Jade and psychologist Dr. LaShonda Green:

“For a couple of days, I couldn’t get out of the bed, I didn’t care. That’s not me. Then, I started having thoughts about ending it.”

Taraji P. Henson added that she had recently bought a gun and told herself:

“I could go in there right now, and just end it all.”

Her mind did cross on her during those dark thoughts. She thought about her 26-year-old Marcell Johnson, and how he would be impacted and said she thought:

“He’s grown, he’ll get over it.”

Thankfully, she was able to overcome it after telling a friend about her struggle.

“I felt myself withdrawing. People were calling me, I wasn’t responding. I just didn’t care. Finally, I’m talking to one of my girlfriends and I knew, I was smart enough to say, ‘I have to say it.’”

While she said she felt “ashamed” about it, she decided to open up anyway.

“I was like, I don’t want them to think I’m crazy. I don’t want them to, you know, obsess over me or think they gotta come and sit on me.”

“So one day I just blurted it out, to my girlfriend. She called me in the morning and I was like, ‘You know I thought about killing myself last night.’”

Taraji P. Henson said that was all she needed to recover and told her friend:

“‘Oh my god, I feel so much better. I’m not gonna do it now.’”

She went on to say:

“For me, I’m no professional, but I felt like, if I don’t say it, it becomes a plan. And what scared me, is that I did it two nights in a row. And the thoughts kept coming. Now I started think about how. At first, it was like, I don’t want to be here. And then I started thinking about going and getting the gun. And that’s why when I woke up the next morning, and I blurted it out. Because I felt like after a while it was going to take over me and it was going to become a plan because that’s how strong my brain is.”

Check out the episode below.